Hello. This is Me.

Hi Friends!

Another edition of “Bella writes what’s on her mind, so heres another monologue” for you to enjoy. I thought about what Summer 2017 means to me and what I wish to accomplish. And here it is, in the flesh.

Something to think about and ponder as you go about your everyday routine.

Hello. This is me.

“Being alone. Staring at yourself straight in the eyes. Who’s behind that mask? Is it you? How do we know? How do we understand where we stand? How do we appreciate our potential if we’re never alone? Being alone. It’s a terrifying process. Because you’re forced to face you. I’ve never been alone. Alone enough to have a conversation with me. To get to know me. To define me. Me. What does that stand for? Among a crowd of people in a busy subway station, there I am. Standing there. But what does that mean? In the busy traffic of rush hour when everyone is cutting each other; huffing and puffing. There’s my car. And me. But what does that mean? People go through life running. From one place to the next. Not taking time to appreciate what they see, because all they see is the next thing. Everyone’s got a planner, and the more you can fill it the better. With things. Plans. People. Is there any time for you in there? And what does this all mean? Being busy. Day by day. We all do it. What does it mean? To you? To everyone else? Have you learned who you are before you show yourself to others? When you shake someones hand and introduce yourself, what is the meaning behind your name? Did you ever take the time to learn? We always make time for the people who are most important to us right? Then why did you not start with you? Me. You. We have a lot of learning to do. A lot of self loving to do. So go and do it. How will you ever love anyone else if you don’t love you first. Hello. This is Me. And I’m gonna go find out who that is.”

Until next time,

Bella 🙂

~She believed she could, so she did.~


It’s Okay To Not Have A Plan.



Hello Friends!

As you may or may not have read recently on my blog, I have officially graduated from my university. I am off in the world, and ready to take on the real world. Or, so I thought…

In my mind, I always imagined myself graduating with a job, and a place to live all for myself. I imagined myself having money in the bank, and living my absolute best life.

That is not the reality of the situation. I am currently back home, and I have been for about two weeks now. I have no full time job lined up. I have very little funds. My diploma hasn’t even been mailed to me yet. I am just here. Taking on the days as they come to me. I could be really sad, upset, and depressed about this right? Especially while some of my friends are already off, moving places, traveling the world or working.

But, I have a clear set goal and direction in my mind. I know what I want. I know what I love to do. I know where I want to move to. I know how much money I need in order to do so. I was extremely stressed for the first week of being home. Paranoid that things weren’t happening quickly enough. I still feel anxious about it.

I’ve calmed down though. It took a lot of people to engrain this into my brain, but I’ve been learning recently, how to live. Yes, I don’t have a job. Yes, I am home. Okay, great. But I am so blessed. Blessed to be living back in my childhood house with my mom. Blessed to be able to go wherever I want, whenever I want. Blessed to have friends that I can drive and see whenever I want to. Blessed that I have a family who takes care of me, and vise versa.

Life couldn’t be better. I told my mom last night, that this is probably the only time in my life that I will be able to live this way. Not worry about finances. Live in a beautiful home and have someone pay for me. And take care of me. It just doesn’t get better than this. I am eternally grateful. So, I have been spending my free time post graduation reflecting on my life. Looking at all that I have accomplished and thinking about what I want to accomplish next.

Life is so short, and so full. We can’t simply keep going going going, or else we’re going to miss it all.

Do you have a plan? Great! Don’t have a plan? Wonderful! Even better. Every day will be a surprise. Congratulations! That’s the best kind of journey.

Until next time,

Bella 🙂

~She believed she could, so she did~